Babysbreath Lyrics

When I grow up

These flowers of youth will unbloom

When I grow up

The space between my fingers won't be filled by you

Water from my cup will

Blur the long-lost powers of you

Though now your

Worn eyes linger

Like overworn perfume

So I said

No I won't have your baby

No I won't have your child

For your father and mine and you all failed me

And the colors of my doubt run wild

You want to name them after your mother

I want to name them in another life

Scared they'd inherit all the rage of my father

And the parts of me my mother never liked

You do not see me

So you won't see me in them

I'll cook and clean and poison my garden

While dandelions bloom and you call it dead

So I bled

No I won't have your baby

No I won't have your child

For your father and mine and you all failed me

And the blues and the pinks and the reds of my doubt run wild

I'm sending them back to a better place

Until if/when you and I ever get in a better place

I'm praying for a world where they don't wear my face

Or cry to sleep wantin' to be in a better place

No I won't have your baby

No I won't have your child

My voice goes quiet, I hope you never understand

How badly I needed you to hold my hand